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2013I’m eating chicken sausage in the kitchen while the girls watch Planet Earth for the hundredth time and the boy eats at the table.
I turned 29 yesterday.
You know that mythical age that women somehow manage to stay for at least 30 years? Yeah, I’m that old. Don’t worry, next year I will be 30… and I will be fine with that.
Statistically, I only have about 30-40 years left. Time is ticking down on my little clock. What have I done with 29 years?
At first, I’m so tempted to say that I’ve done nothing. I’ve only left this humble time zone twice. Only lived in this one state for the past 26 years. Never lived in a room by myself. Only traveled by air twice. Haven’t even created a bucket list.
Little me, I just fold laundry, herd children, talk with friends, and cuddle with my husband. I’m just ordinary.
I think it’s at this point that I have to step back and see the whole Story. I’ve written before about how history is really just His Story. About how all these little moments really matter because they’re writing a story of redemption far bigger than just these 29 years.
For 29 years, I’ve lived His Story. And some of it has been mundane. Some of it has been heart breaking. Some of it has been laughter. And none of it seems really remarkable. But it is. It is remarkable. My story, my small part of His Story is remarkable. Your story, your small part of His Story is remarkable.
Our story is remarkable because of the mundane, not in spite of it. Its remarkable because we’ve changed the diapers, done the laundry, listened to our friends hurts and cried with them, cried ourselves, fallen, repented, and kept moving forward toward Him.
And maybe that’s the heart of His Story: our repentance, His Grace, and the unlikely redemption that God chooses to use us anyway.
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2012“Where is baby Jesus?” Aeralind tugs my hand and asks as angels announce his birth at A Journey to Bethlehem.
We’ve been bombarded with the sights and sounds of the city for the past 30 minutes. The Roman soldiers with their swords and helmets and scowls had scared my adventuresome girls. At least until they met the smiling soldier holding a horse by the reigns. They had softened when he laughed and let them rub the horse’s side.
The girls had smelt spices, heard stories, sampled perfume, sawed some wood, watched a potter, pet goats, and chickens (which Bronwyn liked to boss around) and even cuddled a donkey. The hustle and bustle of the city center and the flock of people herded us on from one place to the next.
Angels sang and a rabbi taught us the Shema. Dancers performed before a wide eyed Sedryn in the stroller. The girls sampled cookies, bread, cocoa, honey. They drank it all in amazed.
Mary and Joseph arrive at the house of a distant relative, tired and looking for lodging. There is no room for them because of the census. The magic of this place is deep and the girls stare at Mary’s full and expectant tummy. “Mommy,” whispers sweet Bronwyn. “The baby Jesus is in her tummy.”
They girls are collecting stamps and jewels for a bracelet, but still all they ask for is to see the baby Jesus. Aeralind, she corners the nice carpenter. “Where is baby Jesus?” She demands of a stranger in an uncharacteristic manner for her heart. And he tells them. So we go.
They stand frozen before the manger. Jesus in Joseph’s arms next to a weary Mary. They whisper about the glory of it all excitedly between themselves. We herd them on since Sedryn is beyond ready for bed.
They’ve chattered about seeing Him ever since the magic of the best story every told began capturing their tiny hearts.
I do believe this will be a family tradition. One I can’t wait to repeat next year!
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2012The girls they help with joy as we giggle over dishes and knowing where they go when clean and dirty.
The baby (who’s not so much a baby) stands tall in the kitchen hands over his head as he practices his new trick.
The dishes are loaded up and they ask for scissors and paper and scamper off.
Sedryn he’s squealing with his typical bottomless pit evening hunger.
Sheets half sewn into bible costumes lay all over the middle floor of the house (including my kitchen).
5 or 6 blog posts sit half written in my queue waiting for a moment to finish.
I wonder why I can’t finish anything.
But early childhood is so demanding, so all consuming. These little souls enfleshed are the bulk of my calling. Not writing, not photography, not the 6 ladies who studied with me on Tuesday, not my MOPS table, not my Shepherding group. The mess, the continual interruption of my to-do list is my calling. Is grace to my soul and theirs.
Now excuse me, as I pull the baby (now stuck) from under a picnic table….
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2012{Plop! Thud! Boom} Aeralind falls off a chair for the third or fourth time today.
M: “Whew! Ya’ll are clumsy today. Are you growing?”
A: Yesth
M: Are you going to be four feet taller by Monday?
A: Yesth, then I can touch the sky. And do ballerinas.